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I’m want a baby!

I’m a lesbian who wants to have a baby in the near future. I want to do it the old fashioned way. No I’m not bisexual, but it’s less expensive and clinical. I have a guy friend that has volunteered to be a sperm donor. We’ve talked about it for some years now and I’m think I’m ready now. We talked about it again recently and I’m starting to realize that’s it’s just all about the sex with him. I know, ‘his a guy, what do you expect?’, but this is way more than just sex. He is helping me create life. He even said he wants the baby to know him as his/ her father, not just the ‘donor’. He tells me he just excited for the day that I’m ready. Then asks, ‘so, after you find out you’re pregnant, what happens?’. I simply told him that the mission would be accomplished. He obviously wants more sex after that. It’s like the whole purpose of us talking about the pregnancy plans, went in one ear and out the other. We’ve been friends for so long. He’s been there for most of my relationship since I’ve been out of the closet and he still tried to see if I would take penis just for kicks. Honestly, I look at men as dick, balls, and sperm. I don’t want it if I’m not getting a baby out of it. I don’t even want it at all, but it’s the most easiest and cheapest way to go when a gay woman is feeling maternal. I’m starting to have second thoughts now. I might just need to go the more expensive and clinical route. I need to see about the ‘Inseminator’ that the girls from ‘The Real L Word’ created. Am I the only lesbian going through this?

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