I’m a lesbian who wants to have a baby in the near future. I want to do it the old fashioned way. No I’m not bisexual, but it’s less expensive and clinical. I have a guy friend that has volunteered to be a sperm donor. We’ve talked about it for some years now and I’m think I’m ready now. We talked about it again recently and I’m starting to realize that’s it’s just all about the sex with him. I know, ‘his a guy, what do you expect?’, but this is way more than just sex. He is helping me create life. He even said he wants the baby to know him as his/ her father, not just the ‘donor’. He tells me he just excited for the day that I’m ready. Then asks, ‘so, after you find out you’re pregnant, what happens?’. I simply told him that the mission would be accomplished. He obviously wants more sex after that. It’s like the whole purpose of us talking about the pregnancy plans, went in one ear and out the other. We’ve been friends for so long. He’s been there for most of my relationship since I’ve been out of the closet and he still tried to see if I would take penis just for kicks. Honestly, I look at men as dick, balls, and sperm. I don’t want it if I’m not getting a baby out of it. I don’t even want it at all, but it’s the most easiest and cheapest way to go when a gay woman is feeling maternal. I’m starting to have second thoughts now. I might just need to go the more expensive and clinical route. I need to see about the ‘Inseminator’ that the girls from ‘The Real L Word’ created. Am I the only lesbian going through this?
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0_o how exactly can you do that? If you’re gay, you’re gay! You can’t be too gay or not gay enough. Anyways! I’m a lesbian who enjoys dressing in men’s attire. I guess you can label me stud, stem, or androgynous. Doesn’t matter. I’ve always liked dressing this way ever since I was a kid. The only time I’d wear a dress or skirt was on picture days, family occasions, etc. My mom had my brother and I dressed as twins on a daily basis, so… (trust, he wasn’t walking around looking like a girl). As I got older, my mom started telling me what to wear. She’d pick out my clothes to make sure I would look girly for the day ahead. I hated it! I wore fitted jeans, maybe some Valor sweats but sneakers and construction boots (Timberlands), that was all me. Semi-feminine/tomboy. My mom began throwing out my clothes and buying me new, more feminine clothes and shoes which left me no other choice but to wear what she wanted me to. I began to like it too. Once I started making my own money and had my own place with my own rules, I bought clothes that make me feel good and comfortable. I don’t want to be a boy or a man, I just like what I like.
I’ve notices that ever since I came out of the closet that people acted differently towards me. My family treated me the same until they got upset with me about something. We would never be able to talk about the issue though. All of a sudden, I’m a ‘Dyke!’. It would come out of nowhere when they’d say it to me. I’ve never been called a ‘dyke’ by anyone, not to my face anyway. It really hurts having your family call you that especially after they seemed okay about your lifestyle. Then they have kids and they try to keep you away from them. Never really having a real reason why. But then I hear, ‘it’s not right that you’re gay and I don’t want my kid around you if your going to be gay.’. So I can’t be around some of my family because of the fact. True, that’s their kids and they can have them around whoever they want. But people are who they are, they aren’t going to change for the comfort of others. Me, being a lesbian or should I say ‘dyke for life’ (might as well wear the homophobic slur from a family member proudly), hasn’t hurt me in a mentally, emotionally, or even physically. It’s the fuckers that were apart of my life that I trusted and confided in, that hurt me. That, ‘blood is thicker than water’ shit is pure bull. People that understand you and love you regardless whether they are family or not treat you better than assholes that are so-called family of yours. Everything can not be justified just because the wrong doing was against a gay man or lesbian woman. People need to get over themselves.
How do you honestly feel about the public service announcement AIDS/HIV commercials on BET? The commercials have gay and straight couples in them. While watching tv, one of those commercials came on. It was the one with a gay couple. My friend said,“Oh God! Now I gotta see this shit on tv too?!” It kind of hurt me, because I’m always around her and she knows that I’m a lesbian. It just makes me wonder; how does she really feel? That commercial just proves that there are other people in the world. Plus it shows that we are all having sex and everyone of us need to protect ourselves. Thoughts and opinions are welcome.